Friday, November 11, 2011

Who Am I?

The question stands, sometimes I don't even know myself.

I'm an 18 year old Girl who is just out High School and went straight into college.

Name: Ashley C Morris
Age: 18
Birthday: March 28th 1993
Parents: Keith and Robin
Pets: 4 Dogs Ellie, Kira, Minnie, Dylan. 2 Birds Rainbow and Patches
Location: California

School: Kaplan University Online
Major: Psychology-Child Development
Hobbies: Blogging, Photography
Job: Student Hoping for a job soon.
Fears: Heights, Darkness, Snakes & Spiders.
Future Job: Lawyer/Judge for Family Court

Sometimes I wish life wasn't so hard, and that I don't feel like I have to try so hard just to be seen or heard for maybe 5 minutes. Being "invisible" to people, if you've never felt like you can just stand there for an hour and wonder how many people will run into you, or wonder how long do I have to stand here till someone notices I'm here. Then you don't know what it's like to actually be "invisible".

Been over looked by everyone? Then you know what it's like to be everyones second or third choice maybe even their last. Ever feel like you have bad timing or no one talks to you like you never sent them a message? Are you in your senior year Yearbook?

Ever ask yourself, Do I really matter to people? Are my friends really my friends? or Who's going to talk to me today?

I'm asking all these questions because I want people to know what I feel like almost every day. I feel like no matter how hard I try to talk to people I'm not going to have those plans I set up with that person the next day. When I was in High School yeah I was known but really how many of those people actually really remember me. When they go to the 2010-2011 yearbook and look at their Seniors for that year Good luck finding me.

How is it that the people who actually have a great personality or who are really nice, unless if their out going and loud, how are they getting recognized? Some are some aren't. Why is it that I feel like I have to work harder to actually get recognition and be noticed by people and then all the work just to get shot down. I'm not even sure I should have written this post, because as I'm writing I'm fighting myself to not cry, but you know it's hard. When you've been dealing with these feeling for years after so long, they hit hard and it's not pretty when they do hit.

There might be more to this but I don't have any words to add to this post.


  1. Oh Ash ;w;

    I feel so sorry... I really don't know what to say. Just wanted to let you know that you have made a difference to many. Please remember we're out there for you. If you ever need any help, call upon us. We know you're there, and you are a big help. Thank you - for everything. I may not know you well, but I can tell you are someone worth talking about.

    ~ Laura

  2. Ash! :o

    You are not invisible! WE are here for you! ALWAYS! whenever you need something,or want to share something,happy or sad,me and your other tfm friends will be here! you can ALWAYS count on us! There is nothing that can change the way we see you,and that is what is important <3 Don't be sad! Life is too short to be occupied with some assholes telling you what to do or not! Thank you for everything you ever did to help me and other friends-its something that we will never forget! <3 You ARE the best! take care and dont let some idiots brake you down!

    - Rainy <3